let the RUTINE of the familiar push you into the unknown…VISION!!!

Today i was walking through the halls of the school and church i grew up in … and i began to relive many moments I had had in those halls. It amazed me how much God had done in my life through this church and school. In the same moment i was reminiscing i began to dream about my future and where i would be walking the rest of my life. I began to envision my self in other places walking in Gods will…I cant explain it but it was an amazing feeling to be walking the halls i had walked for so many years and finally be able to see beyond them. Into a vision of where God is taking me! and not only see beyond them but take the steps to move beyond them in everything i do… im tired of having visions that just stay visions i want to make them a reality! and today while thinking of the past i moved into the future!!!

” don’t let DREAMS just be DREAMS” “make them a reality”

kelly jo

all day long ive been with jesus….

hey my word press people yes i’m blogging again i know its a record…anyways today i woke up before the sun because i had to be in lakeland by 8am so i left daytona around 530 in the am… crazy i know hey my brother does it three days a week(love ya dan)… anyways so why did i have to be there at 8 am well it has something to do with this lovely thing called discipline and i don’t mean being committed nope i mean getting in trouble yes how you ask well i failed scripture memory test on friday so i had to come in on my day off and write all 147 scriptures three times each…which would add up to 441 scriptures… it took me from 8am till 2pm to finish… good times… at first thought you may think i was completely miserable but actually i have been crazy busy all week so the time alone driving scriptures into my head was just what i needed… it really was refreshing its crazy how the word of God does that…. all day long ive been with jesus… you know you can do that everyday hes always there we just have to acknowledge him…

STOP…and breath

so  i came home this weekend to celebrate my fathers 50th birthday… and i also decided while i was away from masters i would just take some time to reflect on life to rest and observe… i guess i would call it that?… but my family is crazy and there is always something going on… and if there isn’t you feel like you should be starting something… but tonight even thou i haven’t seen a lot of  people and i haven’t seen them  since Christmas and i could definitely find something to do weather it be hang with friends or try once more to have some intervention conversation with my father… tonight i just need to spend some time alone just me and my maker… life will always be busy we have to force our selves to stop and breath…or at least i do i am the kind of person that loves to stay busy because it keeps my mind off other things that i don’t want to think about… but the farther i run the longer it will take me to get back to where i need to be going… so i force myself to stop…and breath to just rest in God…

so today calvary Stopped service and  broke ground for our new building… it is amazing this was the second ground breaking i have been through with  calvary and the last one was only six years ago man God is good… it was great and on some levels i feel like its time to break new ground in my own life to step out in faith… God has been taking me through some hard stuff in my life and its not easy but it is strengthening my faith… which means i have been having to take alot more time to just STOP and breath…

just take some time to stop and Breath in who God is and wants to be in your life…

its not you…

wow it has been a while life has been non stop lately literally and emotionally… sometimes i wonder does God understand that i can only take so much at one time haha he did create me so im pretty sure he knows what i can hanndle… sometimes it just feels as if everything is happening all at once… have you ever noticed that you will have times when everything seems to be in order God is working and everything is not perfect but its moving forward and its under control  … then all of the sudden all at once everything will seem like its all crashing down around you and you and God are close but your issue seems to be ruling over your life… i have had moments like these and i think that just maybe at times we get so comfortable in a good time that we begin to forget that God was the one who brought us there and begin to focus on ourselves that God is forced to reminded that with out him we are nothing and that it is only by his grace that we are who we are and have what we have… i encourage you don’t forget what and who God is in your life it was nothing you did to get you to where you are today it was God from the your first breath… he didnt even have to give you that but he did and soo much more…

burn the ships

ok this week in masters the theme is DIE TO SELF sound harsh ya well it kind of is but its really good to and i think everyone goes through a time when you have to get past your self if you don’t how can God ever take control or how do you ever expect to truly  get closer to God is you are still depending on other things instead of God…

so there is this story in history of cortez he took his men on a voyage to an island to find treasure…. once they were all off the boat he burnt all the ships so no one would give up looking or desert him if they got tired….

so many times in our lives we give things to God or leave things from our past to follow God we get off our boat to follow God and we follow him for a while but when something doesn’t go our way or there is a bump in the road,or God asks you to give something you dont want to… we run backto our boat where we feel safe or comfortable and it most likely really isn’t anywhere near comfortable but we were so used to living that we have become used to sitting in the thorns of our past…

so i challenge you just i was challenged burn all the ships in your life weather it be bad relationships, habits, doubt, hurt, unforgiveness , the list could go on forever you know what it is in your life so burn your ship and move forward into what God has for you… stop retreating…

give the wheel up

ok today i actually had a day off its was nice i slept in, cleaned and study for my “life of Christ” test on Wednesday which might i add is an incredible book… any ways while i was studying i was listening to music (like i always do it helps block out all other noise or distractions) the song “Jesus take the wheel” by Carrie Underwood came on i listened to it once and then it played again… and i really listen to the words and God spoke to me i know weird God spoke through a country song unheard of right well not anymore…

there are so many times when i try and drive my own life even to the point of crashing i don’t know why we as people feel better when we are in control i think it has something to do with trust( thats a whole other issue). and when its comes to our lives we want to be in control so bad but still want to surrender to Christ which is bit of an issue because only one person can drive a car at a time… so God spoke to me today and said why do you continually ask me to take control but your still sitting in the drivers seat with a death grip on the wheel… so i sat and thought ouch wow thats harsh….

no its not its real all God is asking is for us to let go… and let him take control you would think we would hand him the keys after all the wrong turns, flat tires and crashes…. but for some reason we are stubborn imagine that humans stubborn… well im here to tell you im letting go i cant take it any more and let me just tell you i had the death grip… my hand prints are probably embedded in my wheel… but while i was holding on so hard to the wheel of my life i couldn’t recieve anything else God had for me because my hands were stuck to a wheel of a car that i was never meant to drive…

let me just tell you its not easy to let go but you will feel much better after you do he wants to take all of your burdens and worries you can trust Him even with your deepest hurts and fears. give him the key to your future let him take the wheel of your life he has the map to the road ahead so just give it to him….

are you smarter than the devil

i know that sounds weired but im serious are you? Do you read the bible because the one other persons besides God who knows the word of God the best is the devil because he used to be the highest angel before he tried to be higher than God so he really knows his stuff…  and let me just tell you he definitely uses it against us he know just how o twist it so we get confused or tricked… he is out to get you just as God has a plan for you so does the devil to kill steel and destroy…

so with this said i encourage you all to know your word don’t let it depart from you(joshua 1:8) i know reading the word of God can seem boring at times or you don’t know what to read… but ask God to give you a desire for his word and he will… He is faithful… you need his word inside of you to make it through every battle that will come.

i don’t mean to scare you but its the truth and you need to be aware and be ready you need to out smart the the devil… read God word its everything you need you just need to study it when you don’t read the word its like failing and open book test you have to be pretty crazy to fail something when you have all the answers written out for you…

study it… God has so much to show you…. its an adventure.

day off/giant garage(junk) sale ahhhhhhh!

ok so today my day off the second day off that wasn’t a day off .im going to stop calling it my day off because this becoming a pattern im going to call it false advertisement which not to mention is illegal…  any ways im not bitter just tired thats all

 ok so victory church every two years does a huge charity auction and garage sale and i mean huge we unloaded three semi trucks full of stuff today and then began to try and organize all this stuff… if you have ever done a garage sale or been to one imagine having everyone in your church do one all together so not only all the junk from your house but all your friends houses to…. it was a mad house…

but while i was working today i was reminded of this thought while i was putting toys onto a table: i was holding a doll and while looking at it God reminded me i have know idea what little girl is going to get this doll maybe some girl who couldn’t afford a new doll or nice toys may be she had never had a doll before and this was going to put a smile on her face… even though i wont ever meet the people who buy all these things and i dont know there stories; every thing that i price or put on a table is going to fill someones heart with joy. Maybe that designer bag will go to a single mom who cant ever afford to treat herself to anything that nice. You never how your small task may impact someone else life so do everything with a cheerful heart, what you may see as junk could be a jewel to someone else.

i miss yall BUT…

OK  i seriously missed yall today but can i just say that i wouldnt come back right now if you asked me to. why you ask well because God is doing great things in my life right now… and when i say He is doing great things i dont mean wow i feel great because He is striping  ALOT  of stuff away and its hard but i know i need it…

just thought i would ask? has God ever asked you to let go of something that has been apart of you for a long time and you know you need to let go but their is just something inside of you that doesn’t want to let go… well that is where i am at…i know there is a certain person in my life i need to forgive but i really dont want to do you ever feel like you deserve to be angry at someone…

let me just tell you what i have learned about this situation in my life the person doesn’t even know how much they have hurt me so they don’t have any idea that i want them to say sorry or anything soo me feeling this way towards them is only hurting me and most importantly keeping me from what God wants to do in my life…  so  im am trying really hard to let go.

and let me just tell you its ok to feel hurt but not to hold unforgiveness in your heart God forgave you…

and thou i am telling you all of this i still am dealing with it so if you could just keep me in your prayers i would greatly appreciate it. well i will write again

not just another high

so we went this thursday and friday on a retreat it was life changing it has only been a week and God has already done so much in me. its crazy what God will do when your striving after him, so we left thursday morning for lake yale i knew we were going on a covenant and that we would be deciding to give the next nine months of our live souly to the purpose of Gods will. but nothing could have prepared me for what God did in my life thurday night pastor jeff brought a great word about seven things needed to have epic change… and it opened my eyes to the fact that all change isnt automatic some takes time and action.

so the service was great i had kept it together and then his wife got up there she is very straight forward she said that there is some people in the room who where still holding on to there plan just incase they miss Gods and that we had already decided to just do matsers knowing we had a fall back plan at home she said we need to let go. i felt like she had read my mail and it had just been shared with the world it was a major wake up call, its what i needed to hear but didnt want to hear (ever been there) so God began to open my eyes to the fact that even though i was in his will i still was holding on to my own plan and if i continued to hold on i wouldnt be able to step forward into what He has for me.

so i have gone to many camps and retreats and you know how it goes you go get all pumped up and your good for about a week or two after then your back to your old self but this was different God did something or i allowed God to do something that will cause me never to be the same. this year is going to be hard i am going to learn alto but one thing God told me is that i need to let Go of any title good or bad that i have ever had and just seek him, i know this is what i need to do and even thou its going to be hard i know God is going to do so much this year… in me personally this is not just another high in my life its a step towards the development of who God has created me to be…

so i say all of this to say that all steps in your life aren’t going to be easy but embrace the rough ones because God will teach you so much in those moments when you allow your self to completely completely trust in him. and don’t let moments that were ment to be a step in your life just fade away into a high.