today was a lazy day for me i spent the night at one of the 2nd years(stephanie) houses we woke up to someone knocking on the door it was another 2nd year katie she waked in and crashed with us we all slept until 12pm got up and decided to eat lunch because it was to late for breakfast so we made chicken fingers and a pizza o so health i know… and watch the movie over the hedge it was funny after that we decided to go on a walk to get out of the house and to get rid of the guilty feeling for sleeping in so late and eating so much we walked for 45min it was refreshing (p.s we were all still in our pjs) when we got back we slept until we had to go pick up laura(1st year) from the church on the way home we stopped at walmart to get some sugar free ice cream we got home made some more chicken fingers for dinner eat some ice cream while wating for them to cook… and then watch the devil wears prada until 7pm we all got in the car to go to steve’s (2nd year) house to watch Heros man it was crazy this week…. then i finally made it home took a shower and wrote this and will now go to bed….some times you just need a lazy day well good night and treat your self to a lazy day sometime….
i feel…
today has been slow i woke up at 11:00am and then cleaned my room and bathroom just in case there is a random room check this week… then i ate lunch(hot dog)… then i decided i should start to work on my service to God on tuesday we all have to present something to God for concert of prayer so i thought about it… they said we could write a poem, draw a picture ect… so i decided to dance im a little nervous i have not danced solo for three years but hey its for God not me or anyone else ….right, today for the first time since i have been here im a little home sick but hey i get to go home on the 21st o yes so i will be fine… did i say that God is good he is teaching me a lot im being stretched… well i will ttyl love you all….
give the wheel up
ok today i actually had a day off its was nice i slept in, cleaned and study for my “life of Christ” test on Wednesday which might i add is an incredible book… any ways while i was studying i was listening to music (like i always do it helps block out all other noise or distractions) the song “Jesus take the wheel” by Carrie Underwood came on i listened to it once and then it played again… and i really listen to the words and God spoke to me i know weird God spoke through a country song unheard of right well not anymore…
there are so many times when i try and drive my own life even to the point of crashing i don’t know why we as people feel better when we are in control i think it has something to do with trust( thats a whole other issue). and when its comes to our lives we want to be in control so bad but still want to surrender to Christ which is bit of an issue because only one person can drive a car at a time… so God spoke to me today and said why do you continually ask me to take control but your still sitting in the drivers seat with a death grip on the wheel… so i sat and thought ouch wow thats harsh….
no its not its real all God is asking is for us to let go… and let him take control you would think we would hand him the keys after all the wrong turns, flat tires and crashes…. but for some reason we are stubborn imagine that humans stubborn… well im here to tell you im letting go i cant take it any more and let me just tell you i had the death grip… my hand prints are probably embedded in my wheel… but while i was holding on so hard to the wheel of my life i couldn’t recieve anything else God had for me because my hands were stuck to a wheel of a car that i was never meant to drive…
let me just tell you its not easy to let go but you will feel much better after you do he wants to take all of your burdens and worries you can trust Him even with your deepest hurts and fears. give him the key to your future let him take the wheel of your life he has the map to the road ahead so just give it to him….
day off/giant garage(junk) sale ahhhhhhh!
ok so today my day off the second day off that wasn’t a day off .im going to stop calling it my day off because this becoming a pattern im going to call it false advertisement which not to mention is illegal… any ways im not bitter just tired thats all
ok so victory church every two years does a huge charity auction and garage sale and i mean huge we unloaded three semi trucks full of stuff today and then began to try and organize all this stuff… if you have ever done a garage sale or been to one imagine having everyone in your church do one all together so not only all the junk from your house but all your friends houses to…. it was a mad house…
but while i was working today i was reminded of this thought while i was putting toys onto a table: i was holding a doll and while looking at it God reminded me i have know idea what little girl is going to get this doll maybe some girl who couldn’t afford a new doll or nice toys may be she had never had a doll before and this was going to put a smile on her face… even though i wont ever meet the people who buy all these things and i dont know there stories; every thing that i price or put on a table is going to fill someones heart with joy. Maybe that designer bag will go to a single mom who cant ever afford to treat herself to anything that nice. You never how your small task may impact someone else life so do everything with a cheerful heart, what you may see as junk could be a jewel to someone else.
