let the RUTINE of the familiar push you into the unknown…VISION!!!

Today i was walking through the halls of the school and church i grew up in … and i began to relive many moments I had had in those halls. It amazed me how much God had done in my life through this church and school. In the same moment i was reminiscing i began to dream about my future and where i would be walking the rest of my life. I began to envision my self in other places walking in Gods will…I cant explain it but it was an amazing feeling to be walking the halls i had walked for so many years and finally be able to see beyond them. Into a vision of where God is taking me! and not only see beyond them but take the steps to move beyond them in everything i do… im tired of having visions that just stay visions i want to make them a reality! and today while thinking of the past i moved into the future!!!

” don’t let DREAMS just be DREAMS” “make them a reality”

kelly jo

scattered thouhgts….

i have many things i would love to write about but life its so busy i shouldnt even be on right now i need to get ready for concert of prayer im speaking for 5min on the peace God… and i have a mandatory 2nd year  application that is due on friday but its going to take a while because they ask some really deep questions like to name a one where would you like to be in 5 years? which is amazing but to write it out is going to be fun…. any ways God is taking me to a place of deep surrender its humbling and intense and a bit emotional but i want to surrender everything.. which means complete sacrifice… and to end this very scattered message it is storming out side and i love it…..

all day long ive been with jesus….

hey my word press people yes i’m blogging again i know its a record…anyways today i woke up before the sun because i had to be in lakeland by 8am so i left daytona around 530 in the am… crazy i know hey my brother does it three days a week(love ya dan)… anyways so why did i have to be there at 8 am well it has something to do with this lovely thing called discipline and i don’t mean being committed nope i mean getting in trouble yes how you ask well i failed scripture memory test on friday so i had to come in on my day off and write all 147 scriptures three times each…which would add up to 441 scriptures… it took me from 8am till 2pm to finish… good times… at first thought you may think i was completely miserable but actually i have been crazy busy all week so the time alone driving scriptures into my head was just what i needed… it really was refreshing its crazy how the word of God does that…. all day long ive been with jesus… you know you can do that everyday hes always there we just have to acknowledge him…

STOP…and breath

so  i came home this weekend to celebrate my fathers 50th birthday… and i also decided while i was away from masters i would just take some time to reflect on life to rest and observe… i guess i would call it that?… but my family is crazy and there is always something going on… and if there isn’t you feel like you should be starting something… but tonight even thou i haven’t seen a lot of  people and i haven’t seen them  since Christmas and i could definitely find something to do weather it be hang with friends or try once more to have some intervention conversation with my father… tonight i just need to spend some time alone just me and my maker… life will always be busy we have to force our selves to stop and breath…or at least i do i am the kind of person that loves to stay busy because it keeps my mind off other things that i don’t want to think about… but the farther i run the longer it will take me to get back to where i need to be going… so i force myself to stop…and breath to just rest in God…

so today calvary Stopped service and  broke ground for our new building… it is amazing this was the second ground breaking i have been through with  calvary and the last one was only six years ago man God is good… it was great and on some levels i feel like its time to break new ground in my own life to step out in faith… God has been taking me through some hard stuff in my life and its not easy but it is strengthening my faith… which means i have been having to take alot more time to just STOP and breath…

just take some time to stop and Breath in who God is and wants to be in your life…

its not you…

wow it has been a while life has been non stop lately literally and emotionally… sometimes i wonder does God understand that i can only take so much at one time haha he did create me so im pretty sure he knows what i can hanndle… sometimes it just feels as if everything is happening all at once… have you ever noticed that you will have times when everything seems to be in order God is working and everything is not perfect but its moving forward and its under control  … then all of the sudden all at once everything will seem like its all crashing down around you and you and God are close but your issue seems to be ruling over your life… i have had moments like these and i think that just maybe at times we get so comfortable in a good time that we begin to forget that God was the one who brought us there and begin to focus on ourselves that God is forced to reminded that with out him we are nothing and that it is only by his grace that we are who we are and have what we have… i encourage you don’t forget what and who God is in your life it was nothing you did to get you to where you are today it was God from the your first breath… he didnt even have to give you that but he did and soo much more…

something we often forget….

i spoke this past sunday in 180 (middle school) and when i was thinking about what God wanted me to share he spoke something to me….

i spoke about how so many times through out the day we compare ourselves to other people and that one thought can destroy us for the rest of the day…. we start thinking im not smart enough, pretty-handsome enough,talented enough….the list could go on forever… fill in your own insecurities … and these insecurities begin to cause us to change the way we act,dress,talk… just to be accepted or feel better about ourselves… but even in the mist of changing all these things we still never feel complete or better about ourselves its just a race with no finish line… its like we fall asleep to who we really are to what GOD created us to be…. and after a while we can’t even figure out who we are under it all…

we all live with insecurities…. all of this brought me to the story of moses (exodus 4:10) when he ask GOD to send someone else because he has never been good with words and will never be, i get tongue tied… and GOD replied (this is my fav. part) who created your mouth who says if people can see or not, can hear or not…. is it not I the Lord…

in the mist of everything just like moses we for get who created us and who has all the power….
also to prove this you should read psalms 139:13:18 it say GOD knit us together… we are all fearfully and wonderfully made….he saw our unformed bodies… he know everyday ordained for us…. when we awake everyday he is still with us…

GOD created each of us different for a reason so why do we compare ourselves we are not suppose to be the same so it is impossible and will only bring disappointment…

…So during this season of Thanksgiving don’t forget to thank GOD for who you are who he created you to be…

GOD has been teaching me to be secure in who he has created me to be so i thank GOD for who I am

i feel…

today has been slow i woke up at 11:00am and then cleaned my room and bathroom just in case there is a random room check this week… then i ate lunch(hot dog)… then i decided i should start to work on my service to God on tuesday we all have to present something to God for concert of prayer so i thought about it… they said we could write a poem, draw a picture ect… so i decided to dance im a little nervous i have not danced solo for three years but hey its for God not me or anyone else ….right, today for the first time since i have been here im a little home sick but hey i get to go home on the 21st o yes so i will be fine… did i say that God is good he is teaching me a lot im being stretched… well i will ttyl love you all….

burn the ships

ok this week in masters the theme is DIE TO SELF sound harsh ya well it kind of is but its really good to and i think everyone goes through a time when you have to get past your self if you don’t how can God ever take control or how do you ever expect to truly  get closer to God is you are still depending on other things instead of God…

so there is this story in history of cortez he took his men on a voyage to an island to find treasure…. once they were all off the boat he burnt all the ships so no one would give up looking or desert him if they got tired….

so many times in our lives we give things to God or leave things from our past to follow God we get off our boat to follow God and we follow him for a while but when something doesn’t go our way or there is a bump in the road,or God asks you to give something you dont want to… we run backto our boat where we feel safe or comfortable and it most likely really isn’t anywhere near comfortable but we were so used to living that we have become used to sitting in the thorns of our past…

so i challenge you just i was challenged burn all the ships in your life weather it be bad relationships, habits, doubt, hurt, unforgiveness , the list could go on forever you know what it is in your life so burn your ship and move forward into what God has for you… stop retreating…

give the wheel up

ok today i actually had a day off its was nice i slept in, cleaned and study for my “life of Christ” test on Wednesday which might i add is an incredible book… any ways while i was studying i was listening to music (like i always do it helps block out all other noise or distractions) the song “Jesus take the wheel” by Carrie Underwood came on i listened to it once and then it played again… and i really listen to the words and God spoke to me i know weird God spoke through a country song unheard of right well not anymore…

there are so many times when i try and drive my own life even to the point of crashing i don’t know why we as people feel better when we are in control i think it has something to do with trust( thats a whole other issue). and when its comes to our lives we want to be in control so bad but still want to surrender to Christ which is bit of an issue because only one person can drive a car at a time… so God spoke to me today and said why do you continually ask me to take control but your still sitting in the drivers seat with a death grip on the wheel… so i sat and thought ouch wow thats harsh….

no its not its real all God is asking is for us to let go… and let him take control you would think we would hand him the keys after all the wrong turns, flat tires and crashes…. but for some reason we are stubborn imagine that humans stubborn… well im here to tell you im letting go i cant take it any more and let me just tell you i had the death grip… my hand prints are probably embedded in my wheel… but while i was holding on so hard to the wheel of my life i couldn’t recieve anything else God had for me because my hands were stuck to a wheel of a car that i was never meant to drive…

let me just tell you its not easy to let go but you will feel much better after you do he wants to take all of your burdens and worries you can trust Him even with your deepest hurts and fears. give him the key to your future let him take the wheel of your life he has the map to the road ahead so just give it to him….

are you smarter than the devil

i know that sounds weired but im serious are you? Do you read the bible because the one other persons besides God who knows the word of God the best is the devil because he used to be the highest angel before he tried to be higher than God so he really knows his stuff…  and let me just tell you he definitely uses it against us he know just how o twist it so we get confused or tricked… he is out to get you just as God has a plan for you so does the devil to kill steel and destroy…

so with this said i encourage you all to know your word don’t let it depart from you(joshua 1:8) i know reading the word of God can seem boring at times or you don’t know what to read… but ask God to give you a desire for his word and he will… He is faithful… you need his word inside of you to make it through every battle that will come.

i don’t mean to scare you but its the truth and you need to be aware and be ready you need to out smart the the devil… read God word its everything you need you just need to study it when you don’t read the word its like failing and open book test you have to be pretty crazy to fail something when you have all the answers written out for you…

study it… God has so much to show you…. its an adventure.