today has been slow i woke up at 11:00am and then cleaned my room and bathroom just in case there is a random room check this week… then i ate lunch(hot dog)… then i decided i should start to work on my service to God on tuesday we all have to present something to God for concert of prayer so i thought about it… they said we could write a poem, draw a picture ect… so i decided to dance im a little nervous i have not danced solo for three years but hey its for God not me or anyone else ….right, today for the first time since i have been here im a little home sick but hey i get to go home on the 21st o yes so i will be fine… did i say that God is good he is teaching me a lot im being stretched… well i will ttyl love you all….
burn the ships
ok this week in masters the theme is DIE TO SELF sound harsh ya well it kind of is but its really good to and i think everyone goes through a time when you have to get past your self if you don’t how can God ever take control or how do you ever expect to truly get closer to God is you are still depending on other things instead of God…
so there is this story in history of cortez he took his men on a voyage to an island to find treasure…. once they were all off the boat he burnt all the ships so no one would give up looking or desert him if they got tired….
so many times in our lives we give things to God or leave things from our past to follow God we get off our boat to follow God and we follow him for a while but when something doesn’t go our way or there is a bump in the road,or God asks you to give something you dont want to… we run backto our boat where we feel safe or comfortable and it most likely really isn’t anywhere near comfortable but we were so used to living that we have become used to sitting in the thorns of our past…
so i challenge you just i was challenged burn all the ships in your life weather it be bad relationships, habits, doubt, hurt, unforgiveness , the list could go on forever you know what it is in your life so burn your ship and move forward into what God has for you… stop retreating…
i miss yall BUT…
OK i seriously missed yall today but can i just say that i wouldnt come back right now if you asked me to. why you ask well because God is doing great things in my life right now… and when i say He is doing great things i dont mean wow i feel great because He is striping ALOT of stuff away and its hard but i know i need it…
just thought i would ask? has God ever asked you to let go of something that has been apart of you for a long time and you know you need to let go but their is just something inside of you that doesn’t want to let go… well that is where i am at…i know there is a certain person in my life i need to forgive but i really dont want to do you ever feel like you deserve to be angry at someone…
let me just tell you what i have learned about this situation in my life the person doesn’t even know how much they have hurt me so they don’t have any idea that i want them to say sorry or anything soo me feeling this way towards them is only hurting me and most importantly keeping me from what God wants to do in my life… so im am trying really hard to let go.
and let me just tell you its ok to feel hurt but not to hold unforgiveness in your heart God forgave you…
and thou i am telling you all of this i still am dealing with it so if you could just keep me in your prayers i would greatly appreciate it. well i will write again
whos in control
so today we had an awesome prayer time katie G (3rd year) played the piano and jess (staff) sang worship songs while we prayed and there was an open mic for any one who wanted to get up and share something God had done in there life or anything eles they wanted to share… so i was just sitting and talkin to the big man up stairs when he kind of tugged on my heart to go say one of the things i want out of this year and not to just say it but declare it like it had already happened and then challenge others to take hold of what they want for there own lives…
so it took me a while to get the courage to go up there but i finally did… and i declared that even when i have tons of thoughts in my mind worry doubt fear anger God reveled to me that it is souly my choice to let them over take me that he has given me the power and wisdom to look past all the false thoughts and the strength to hold on to the great thoughts in my mind. and that even when i want to revert back into some of my old thinking i will stand firm, even if it was more comfortable in my old thoughts i will step out with Gods strength…
so who is control of your mind are you letting the devil control some of your thought or have you taken them captive… by Gods power. Im not saying it will be easy but i am saying God is with you. Isaiah 41:10 ( no im not going to write it get your bible and read it memorize it) i love ya…
tonight at 180 youth (on wednesday JV and V are together ) pastor jeff C. preached about the mind which was awesome he said when God calls you to do anything small or big our mind starts saying WHAT IF this,that, anything your mind can come up with anything to place doubt in our minds… but stop thinking what if and think WHAT IS your strength, creator source of hope… so the next time you start to think what is remember in stead WHAT IS.
well im tired so i will talk to yall later love and miss you guys but know God is doing great things in me and keep me in your prayers because i deal with what if everyday thanx….
