hey my word press people yes i’m blogging again i know its a record…anyways today i woke up before the sun because i had to be in lakeland by 8am so i left daytona around 530 in the am… crazy i know hey my brother does it three days a week(love ya dan)… anyways so why did i have to be there at 8 am well it has something to do with this lovely thing called discipline and i don’t mean being committed nope i mean getting in trouble yes how you ask well i failed scripture memory test on friday so i had to come in on my day off and write all 147 scriptures three times each…which would add up to 441 scriptures… it took me from 8am till 2pm to finish… good times… at first thought you may think i was completely miserable but actually i have been crazy busy all week so the time alone driving scriptures into my head was just what i needed… it really was refreshing its crazy how the word of God does that…. all day long ive been with jesus… you know you can do that everyday hes always there we just have to acknowledge him…
i feel…
today has been slow i woke up at 11:00am and then cleaned my room and bathroom just in case there is a random room check this week… then i ate lunch(hot dog)… then i decided i should start to work on my service to God on tuesday we all have to present something to God for concert of prayer so i thought about it… they said we could write a poem, draw a picture ect… so i decided to dance im a little nervous i have not danced solo for three years but hey its for God not me or anyone else ….right, today for the first time since i have been here im a little home sick but hey i get to go home on the 21st o yes so i will be fine… did i say that God is good he is teaching me a lot im being stretched… well i will ttyl love you all….
burn the ships
ok this week in masters the theme is DIE TO SELF sound harsh ya well it kind of is but its really good to and i think everyone goes through a time when you have to get past your self if you don’t how can God ever take control or how do you ever expect to truly get closer to God is you are still depending on other things instead of God…
so there is this story in history of cortez he took his men on a voyage to an island to find treasure…. once they were all off the boat he burnt all the ships so no one would give up looking or desert him if they got tired….
so many times in our lives we give things to God or leave things from our past to follow God we get off our boat to follow God and we follow him for a while but when something doesn’t go our way or there is a bump in the road,or God asks you to give something you dont want to… we run backto our boat where we feel safe or comfortable and it most likely really isn’t anywhere near comfortable but we were so used to living that we have become used to sitting in the thorns of our past…
so i challenge you just i was challenged burn all the ships in your life weather it be bad relationships, habits, doubt, hurt, unforgiveness , the list could go on forever you know what it is in your life so burn your ship and move forward into what God has for you… stop retreating…
give the wheel up
ok today i actually had a day off its was nice i slept in, cleaned and study for my “life of Christ” test on Wednesday which might i add is an incredible book… any ways while i was studying i was listening to music (like i always do it helps block out all other noise or distractions) the song “Jesus take the wheel” by Carrie Underwood came on i listened to it once and then it played again… and i really listen to the words and God spoke to me i know weird God spoke through a country song unheard of right well not anymore…
there are so many times when i try and drive my own life even to the point of crashing i don’t know why we as people feel better when we are in control i think it has something to do with trust( thats a whole other issue). and when its comes to our lives we want to be in control so bad but still want to surrender to Christ which is bit of an issue because only one person can drive a car at a time… so God spoke to me today and said why do you continually ask me to take control but your still sitting in the drivers seat with a death grip on the wheel… so i sat and thought ouch wow thats harsh….
no its not its real all God is asking is for us to let go… and let him take control you would think we would hand him the keys after all the wrong turns, flat tires and crashes…. but for some reason we are stubborn imagine that humans stubborn… well im here to tell you im letting go i cant take it any more and let me just tell you i had the death grip… my hand prints are probably embedded in my wheel… but while i was holding on so hard to the wheel of my life i couldn’t recieve anything else God had for me because my hands were stuck to a wheel of a car that i was never meant to drive…
let me just tell you its not easy to let go but you will feel much better after you do he wants to take all of your burdens and worries you can trust Him even with your deepest hurts and fears. give him the key to your future let him take the wheel of your life he has the map to the road ahead so just give it to him….
are you smarter than the devil
i know that sounds weired but im serious are you? Do you read the bible because the one other persons besides God who knows the word of God the best is the devil because he used to be the highest angel before he tried to be higher than God so he really knows his stuff… and let me just tell you he definitely uses it against us he know just how o twist it so we get confused or tricked… he is out to get you just as God has a plan for you so does the devil to kill steel and destroy…
so with this said i encourage you all to know your word don’t let it depart from you(joshua 1:8) i know reading the word of God can seem boring at times or you don’t know what to read… but ask God to give you a desire for his word and he will… He is faithful… you need his word inside of you to make it through every battle that will come.
i don’t mean to scare you but its the truth and you need to be aware and be ready you need to out smart the the devil… read God word its everything you need you just need to study it when you don’t read the word its like failing and open book test you have to be pretty crazy to fail something when you have all the answers written out for you…
study it… God has so much to show you…. its an adventure.
whos in control
so today we had an awesome prayer time katie G (3rd year) played the piano and jess (staff) sang worship songs while we prayed and there was an open mic for any one who wanted to get up and share something God had done in there life or anything eles they wanted to share… so i was just sitting and talkin to the big man up stairs when he kind of tugged on my heart to go say one of the things i want out of this year and not to just say it but declare it like it had already happened and then challenge others to take hold of what they want for there own lives…
so it took me a while to get the courage to go up there but i finally did… and i declared that even when i have tons of thoughts in my mind worry doubt fear anger God reveled to me that it is souly my choice to let them over take me that he has given me the power and wisdom to look past all the false thoughts and the strength to hold on to the great thoughts in my mind. and that even when i want to revert back into some of my old thinking i will stand firm, even if it was more comfortable in my old thoughts i will step out with Gods strength…
so who is control of your mind are you letting the devil control some of your thought or have you taken them captive… by Gods power. Im not saying it will be easy but i am saying God is with you. Isaiah 41:10 ( no im not going to write it get your bible and read it memorize it) i love ya…
tonight at 180 youth (on wednesday JV and V are together ) pastor jeff C. preached about the mind which was awesome he said when God calls you to do anything small or big our mind starts saying WHAT IF this,that, anything your mind can come up with anything to place doubt in our minds… but stop thinking what if and think WHAT IS your strength, creator source of hope… so the next time you start to think what is remember in stead WHAT IS.
well im tired so i will talk to yall later love and miss you guys but know God is doing great things in me and keep me in your prayers because i deal with what if everyday thanx….
