change…

so i went to starbucks with one of my best friends and we had some good conversation on the way home about all the change in our lives….

change is a great thing its does alot to a person

it  can show you alot about your self and some of the stuff you like and some you wont and know you need to change…

it can be a change of scenery which can teach you that God is the same no matter where you go its just up to us to find him and let be apart of you and change you.

change is a choice you have to want it or you can just enjoy the ride and be the same at the end…which i dont suggest get all you can when you are in a season of change take every opportunity you have to learn and grow.

change isn’t easy all the time, it can be very difficult at times,(1)because some thing you will not be able to control and  you will have to put it in Gods hands even when you wish you could be in control… (2) it WILL push out of your comfort zone to a place you have never been or allowed your self to go.(3) it WILL make you face things you have been avoiding.

Change is so good it lets you know there is a light at the end of the tunnel

change is what we all need at some point of our lives if we never changed think about it we would all still be helpless infants thank God for change….

CHANGE WILL CHANGE YOUR LIFE…..

move on…

so today i was with my youth pastor just hanging out and we were discussing moving on from things in our lives… issues what ever you have had to move away from in your life or just leave behind…. because there is nothing you can do about a situation… well we where discussing something in my life and i said “well what do you do”…. “Smile and move on” and in my head i was thinking i dont even think i can smile and then a few moments later He said ” or if you cant smile just move on” and it hit me that is so true there will be things in your life that just really suck (excuse my French) and you wont be able to smile but you still need to move on because the only person that is being held back from there future is you… not the person or situation that you dont like…

Let it go before it takes hold of  you… believe me it will….
“so today Smile and move on… and if you cant Smile… just move on”

walls… walls… walls…

this past week was covenant week it was intense…. God is doing so much its overwhelming at times…for a while now God has been telling me to step out more than i ever have… and I’m A LITTLE stubborn… its not that i don’t want to i just am trying to figure out when its me or God… so its a journey… seriously most of the time it is God i just tell my self it isnt so  i dont have to  do it ( you know you have done it dont lie)… so the ball it in my hands and now i have to decide what to do with it…

so during this Christmas break you know you are going to have some down time take some time and ask God what he needs you to do or to remind you of times he asked you to do somthing and you said no…

we are all building the walls of our futures some are just in the beginging stages and others are tall but where ever you are there will be things put in your path that will try to stop the process or even destroy parts of your wall so we must be ready at all times to face what ever may come your way…so put your materials in one hand and your sword in the other (nehimiah 4:16-18) (you should read nehimiah its a great book)

listen to the voice of God…and build your wall

its not you…

wow it has been a while life has been non stop lately literally and emotionally… sometimes i wonder does God understand that i can only take so much at one time haha he did create me so im pretty sure he knows what i can hanndle… sometimes it just feels as if everything is happening all at once… have you ever noticed that you will have times when everything seems to be in order God is working and everything is not perfect but its moving forward and its under control  … then all of the sudden all at once everything will seem like its all crashing down around you and you and God are close but your issue seems to be ruling over your life… i have had moments like these and i think that just maybe at times we get so comfortable in a good time that we begin to forget that God was the one who brought us there and begin to focus on ourselves that God is forced to reminded that with out him we are nothing and that it is only by his grace that we are who we are and have what we have… i encourage you don’t forget what and who God is in your life it was nothing you did to get you to where you are today it was God from the your first breath… he didnt even have to give you that but he did and soo much more…

something we often forget….

i spoke this past sunday in 180 (middle school) and when i was thinking about what God wanted me to share he spoke something to me….

i spoke about how so many times through out the day we compare ourselves to other people and that one thought can destroy us for the rest of the day…. we start thinking im not smart enough, pretty-handsome enough,talented enough….the list could go on forever… fill in your own insecurities … and these insecurities begin to cause us to change the way we act,dress,talk… just to be accepted or feel better about ourselves… but even in the mist of changing all these things we still never feel complete or better about ourselves its just a race with no finish line… its like we fall asleep to who we really are to what GOD created us to be…. and after a while we can’t even figure out who we are under it all…

we all live with insecurities…. all of this brought me to the story of moses (exodus 4:10) when he ask GOD to send someone else because he has never been good with words and will never be, i get tongue tied… and GOD replied (this is my fav. part) who created your mouth who says if people can see or not, can hear or not…. is it not I the Lord…

in the mist of everything just like moses we for get who created us and who has all the power….
also to prove this you should read psalms 139:13:18 it say GOD knit us together… we are all fearfully and wonderfully made….he saw our unformed bodies… he know everyday ordained for us…. when we awake everyday he is still with us…

GOD created each of us different for a reason so why do we compare ourselves we are not suppose to be the same so it is impossible and will only bring disappointment…

…So during this season of Thanksgiving don’t forget to thank GOD for who you are who he created you to be…

GOD has been teaching me to be secure in who he has created me to be so i thank GOD for who I am

a lazy day…

today was a lazy day for me i spent the night at one of the 2nd years(stephanie) houses we woke up to someone knocking on the door it was another 2nd year katie she waked in and crashed with us we all slept until 12pm got up and decided to eat lunch because it was to late for breakfast so we made chicken fingers and a pizza o so health i know… and watch the movie over the hedge it was funny after that we decided to go on a walk to get out of the house and to get rid of the guilty feeling for sleeping in so late and eating so much we walked for 45min it was refreshing (p.s we were all still in our pjs) when we got back we slept until we had to go pick up laura(1st year) from the church on the way home we stopped at walmart to get some sugar free ice cream we got home made some more chicken fingers for dinner eat some ice cream while wating for them to cook… and then watch the devil wears prada until 7pm we all got in the car to go to steve’s (2nd year) house to watch Heros man it was crazy this week…. then i finally made it home took a shower and wrote this and will now go to bed….some times you just need a lazy day well good night and treat your self to a lazy day sometime….

i feel…

today has been slow i woke up at 11:00am and then cleaned my room and bathroom just in case there is a random room check this week… then i ate lunch(hot dog)… then i decided i should start to work on my service to God on tuesday we all have to present something to God for concert of prayer so i thought about it… they said we could write a poem, draw a picture ect… so i decided to dance im a little nervous i have not danced solo for three years but hey its for God not me or anyone else ….right, today for the first time since i have been here im a little home sick but hey i get to go home on the 21st o yes so i will be fine… did i say that God is good he is teaching me a lot im being stretched… well i will ttyl love you all….

burn the ships

ok this week in masters the theme is DIE TO SELF sound harsh ya well it kind of is but its really good to and i think everyone goes through a time when you have to get past your self if you don’t how can God ever take control or how do you ever expect to truly  get closer to God is you are still depending on other things instead of God…

so there is this story in history of cortez he took his men on a voyage to an island to find treasure…. once they were all off the boat he burnt all the ships so no one would give up looking or desert him if they got tired….

so many times in our lives we give things to God or leave things from our past to follow God we get off our boat to follow God and we follow him for a while but when something doesn’t go our way or there is a bump in the road,or God asks you to give something you dont want to… we run backto our boat where we feel safe or comfortable and it most likely really isn’t anywhere near comfortable but we were so used to living that we have become used to sitting in the thorns of our past…

so i challenge you just i was challenged burn all the ships in your life weather it be bad relationships, habits, doubt, hurt, unforgiveness , the list could go on forever you know what it is in your life so burn your ship and move forward into what God has for you… stop retreating…

give the wheel up

ok today i actually had a day off its was nice i slept in, cleaned and study for my “life of Christ” test on Wednesday which might i add is an incredible book… any ways while i was studying i was listening to music (like i always do it helps block out all other noise or distractions) the song “Jesus take the wheel” by Carrie Underwood came on i listened to it once and then it played again… and i really listen to the words and God spoke to me i know weird God spoke through a country song unheard of right well not anymore…

there are so many times when i try and drive my own life even to the point of crashing i don’t know why we as people feel better when we are in control i think it has something to do with trust( thats a whole other issue). and when its comes to our lives we want to be in control so bad but still want to surrender to Christ which is bit of an issue because only one person can drive a car at a time… so God spoke to me today and said why do you continually ask me to take control but your still sitting in the drivers seat with a death grip on the wheel… so i sat and thought ouch wow thats harsh….

no its not its real all God is asking is for us to let go… and let him take control you would think we would hand him the keys after all the wrong turns, flat tires and crashes…. but for some reason we are stubborn imagine that humans stubborn… well im here to tell you im letting go i cant take it any more and let me just tell you i had the death grip… my hand prints are probably embedded in my wheel… but while i was holding on so hard to the wheel of my life i couldn’t recieve anything else God had for me because my hands were stuck to a wheel of a car that i was never meant to drive…

let me just tell you its not easy to let go but you will feel much better after you do he wants to take all of your burdens and worries you can trust Him even with your deepest hurts and fears. give him the key to your future let him take the wheel of your life he has the map to the road ahead so just give it to him….

are you smarter than the devil

i know that sounds weired but im serious are you? Do you read the bible because the one other persons besides God who knows the word of God the best is the devil because he used to be the highest angel before he tried to be higher than God so he really knows his stuff…  and let me just tell you he definitely uses it against us he know just how o twist it so we get confused or tricked… he is out to get you just as God has a plan for you so does the devil to kill steel and destroy…

so with this said i encourage you all to know your word don’t let it depart from you(joshua 1:8) i know reading the word of God can seem boring at times or you don’t know what to read… but ask God to give you a desire for his word and he will… He is faithful… you need his word inside of you to make it through every battle that will come.

i don’t mean to scare you but its the truth and you need to be aware and be ready you need to out smart the the devil… read God word its everything you need you just need to study it when you don’t read the word its like failing and open book test you have to be pretty crazy to fail something when you have all the answers written out for you…

study it… God has so much to show you…. its an adventure.